hello world

hmmmm....i really like body jar and sugar ray.
this clipping i'm sticking on is tom's fault. he's not here to appreciate me, so someone else had to. at least it's an automated response, not an actual person.
but he's home soon, so i'll be sane soon enough.
sane?

The Perfect One You scored 71 judgment, 68 compassion, 70 intelligence, and 61 sense of humour!

You've got it all. You've got to be perfection attained. Congratulations. Shoot me a message sometime.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 75% on judgment You scored higher than 75% on compassion You scored higher than 75% on intelligence You scored higher than 75% on sense of humour

Link: The Are You Just Another Girl? Test written by acousticallyemo on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

cheers alex

1. What does your blog name mean?
it means i ran out of ideas....and was kinda into spider webs with dew on them
2. Elaborate on your default photo?
dont have one coz i dont like stalkers and everyone who comments/reads knows what i look like
3. Make up a question.
Alex sucks for nicking off with the best one....ummm....what is wrong with merrylands?!
4. What's your current relationship status?
not quite sane, and rather unsingle. not married tho.but have a lovely boyfriend
5. What EXACTLY are you wearing right now?
grey tshirt and spencer under, and underwear under that, plus 3/4 length nasty trousers i wore to clean the bathroom, + more underwear
6. What is your current problem?
ummmm...international organisation wont refund money they should have, and i am too busy with stuff.
7. What do you love most?
love among people, acceptance and love and friendship
8. What makes you most happy?
knowing i cant screw everything up so much that everything is completely retarded, that God has His Hand over everything
9. Are you musically inclined?
rather. song is wonderful....i have music i need to possess.
10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
cero. God's plan.
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
cat or bird. probably cat.
12. Ever have a near death experience?
almost got hit by a bus in paris. my fault.
13. Name an obvious quality you have.
i care and love a lot. even when it hurts. more than a few people know.
14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
song i wrote yesterday - Also You
15. Who did you cut and paste this from?
Alex! (Zahaquiel)
16. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
ummm...noone, im too special
17. Have you ever vandalized someone's private property?
no, my own, yes
18. Have you ever been in a fight?
i shoved a girl a bit while she attcked my best friend. we were 8. it was not exciting
19. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
often.
20. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
height. if they seem to think im not an idiot.
21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
starbucks?!gah!fight capitalism man!...and...all the other stuff foamy ses. SQUIRRELLY WRATH!
24. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
nicole kidman. the ppl involved i think may not have ever seen nicole kidman
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
you suck for asking that. yes. stuff on ABC, in late arvo i get into
26. Did you have braces?
nope
27. Are you comfortable with your height?
yes!
28. What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
given me a flower pot with my favourite flowers growing in it....given me boxES of my favourite chocolates...given me a lil book of photos of us....those are up there right now.
29. Do you speak any other languages?
french is kinda ok, patient french speakers know what im saying, and a teeny bit of español
30. Do you have a crush on someone on your blog?
i have a very large crush on my boyfriend
Apparently they can't count though - there's two questions missing.

and NOW i am going to bed

heyheyHEY!

lol people i am PSYCHED.RAPT.
tom(oh you all knew it was coming) gave me an mp3cd with all this music on it love...and i find out that in fact I HAVE heard all the bands i know are so important that i should know their songs...i just never knew who they were by.....
and now i can be confident that i have found another genre that loves me as much as i love it.go the acquabats and catch-22 AND eve 6 and the new pornographers esp 'miss teen wordpower'.....
and GO the english beat. im finally catching up on the various waves of ska.
...ok, so i kinda felt that i wasnt sure that i could confidently say i love ska...i loved various components but i never felt genuine...'like one of those people that suddenly shave their head and say they were always into punk' (bonus points if you know where thats from)
and im looking at all this music on my computer and i am THRILLED....i have so much GOLD here.
you never know how much music affects you until you get a S***(yes, ship)load of music you find the audio equivalent of a 6 week road trip with your best mates.
go music. yay. yayayyay.
love~a

flores

Hippy You scored 63% Naturalistic!

You are hippy all the way!

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 58% on TreeHugger You scored higher than 0% on Hippy

Link: The Tree-Hugger VS. Hippy Test written by purpolhaze on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

hello all

it's kathy's bday. go kathy.
oh my goodness, i was just doing this weird quiz online, and a question was 'which shakespearean play was 10 things i hate about you' based on? and the options were hamlet, king lear, much ado about nothing and macbeth.
THE TAMING OF THE SHREW!!!i cannot STAND how that annoys me! the idiot who wrote it OBVIOUSLY has never read/watched the taming of the shrew,nor much ado about nothing( i can only assume that's the one they thought it was).
and then they go and write a question about it, exposing to the world their stupidity!
oh, there we go, something i'm thinking about lately.
Daniel claims that 'Independent' or whatever it's called by....oh smeg...i forgot....AT LEAST I ADMIT IT AND DON'T PRETEND IT'S BY SOMEONE ELSE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT
anyway, the song with the continual 'will you please hold my hand - I cant, im independent
i want to be a man- you can't, im independent...its not that we dont know, why cant she let it go....she's independent, she doesnt need your help, she's independent, she'll do it by herself, she's independent, try not to let it show, she's independent, i hate that stupid ***(mean word i dont think is appropriate although it does rhyme)
anyway, the point is....i mean points are
a)independence is not a bad thing
b)independence doesn't mean being mean to people
c)i'm not even like that!!!
we all went camping recently and time and again i had to rely on tom time and again...i dont like being a burden, and i DO like being my own person AND independence, however when i need help, i ask for it, and i did ask for it....eventually, add to which tom helped ME when he was undergoing far heavier burdens(no metaphor here...his bag was unbelievably heavy)....
+i don't push him away from holding my hand or calling me or anything like that,and he is at his own liberty to be a man, altho he enjoys being a boy from time to time.

so to sum up, i'm not a horrible girlfriend.
ok, i might be, but not for the reasons people think.
ok, on phone to kathy,byeeeee
ps.tom rox

i'm actually going to put effort into this dammit

ok!
meredith and i went to see 'walk the line'. is film about johnny cash's life.
apparently johnny is joaquin phoenix. i think of someone else....
anyway, he was good, very good.
reese witherspoon was june carter, she was cool too.
part of the film is about their two characters....i dont know, when people end up having an affair, you can see the way films normally build up showing everything that was wrong and how a sane person would have an affair too!
i was talking to mum and she was talking about how touring was so much more important for getting music out then though...so i was understanding what happened and how options were limited to alter situations....
i reckon there's a point where your mind says 'ok, i'll give this up to get that', and that's the act which puts the responsibility on a person....things dont just happen, people have attitudes and ideas....
back to the film.
oh, and FYI, johnny cash was a Christian. you wouldnt know it from the film, the way Christ's grace turned his life around. i think it's retarded that it was taken out, and i want to know who of his relatives approved that.
coz he's dead, btw.june too.
who woulda guessed reese and joaquin(pronounced wha-kin) could SING! i was impressed.

ummmmmmm....
UNI GOES BACK SOON!i am so excited, i miss uni...i miss getting out of the house....
i miss having something TO DO that does not include woolies.
i miss seeing people in large amounts that include my friends.
i miss seeing tom without driving or taking public transport for so long....
i miss having something to ignore.

OH, and O MY GOODNESS, in case you forgot, i am STILL going out with the most wonderful guy EVER.
showed up at my house WITHOUT a word...flowers...
me, speechless.
lol, 9 months?is nothing.i intend to keep hold of this one LONG after he's come to his sense and realised i am a crazy old bat.
love me.

DAISY!!:D

Daisy You scored 30% exotic, 48% fragile, and 74% complex!

If you're anything like the picture below, you most certainly delight people in the way that only kittens and sleeping babies can. Traditional flower symbolism: innocence, purity, loyal love. Your opposite is the Camellia.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 27% on exotic You scored higher than 67% on fragile You scored higher than 85% on complex

Link: The What Flower Are You? Test written by gnomee666 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

humph!

well, apparently noone in blogland cared that i LEFT THE COUNTRY!or at least they didnt log their protest online!and some bloody ad guy calling himself johhny smith left an ad in my comments area!is there no decency left in this world??is nothing sacred??
ummmmm........yes, france is very nice. veru cold. many dogs. lots of french. i liked it.
ummmmmmm........
oh screwit
a

it is very very hot.

hey all
my boyfriend did it again. just up and LEFT!
it's late at night(ish) what will i do?
so here i am.
ok, so he didnt leave me so much as go on holiday for about 5 days.
i am well aware i am obsessed with him.
I'M GOING TO SEE LESS THAN JAKE ON TUESDAY!!
woo-hoo
i deliberately didnt put that in capitals. im weaning myself off them. but i am quite excited about less than jake...i've been ODing on 'Anthem'...is goooooooooood.
night. its too hot FYI
`a

we aint got no place to go - SO LETS GO TO THE PUNK ROCK SHOW!

because kimmy compels me...
kimmy is in Dubai! how crazy!
and tom has actually posted! even more crazy!
im going to france! crazy crazy crazy.
the motor registry is completely booked out for ages!
thats not crazy, thats just damn stupid!
am going to see LESS THAN JAKE...wow..im suddenly one of those people that go to rock/ska concerts and see rock/punk bands...i always thought those people were sooo cool.
and now i know i was wrong.
lol, back hurts, am tired, cant drive good, but have no exams!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxalsion

DEMI-ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!

What would I give, to live
where you are.
What would I pay, to stay here beside you.
What would I do to see you, smiling at me?
Where would we walk?
Where would we run?
If we could stay all day in the sun,
Just you and me,
and I could be
Part of your world...

For my sweet one!
Nicole remarked today that T&me were sickening the way we snuggled together-
GET USED TO IT PEOPLE, IT AINT STOPPING ANY TIME SOON.
'sides, I've seen couples who really WERE sickening, and nasty,
but i think a couple who look like they really care about each other are sweet!
I think it's more what Kathy once said, 'On one hand, it's great, and we're really happy for you,
On the other, we just wanna kill you for it.'
But let me tell you, Thomas is worth it!

xoxoxoxox(n)ooooxxoxoxoxo hot stuff,
for everyone else......o......:D

there is nothing wrong with being happy.
oh....and if, like sarah, you once saw me and wanted to say hi, but saw i was...occupied...SAY HI ANYWAY, I'LL LIVE. SO WILL TOM.

ask kathy how it works, she'll tell you :P
here's to six more, or more!
~a

yo yo YO!

ok. i can take the pressure.
exams soon, damn.
assessment due soon.
driving lessons to do so as to obtain p's.
france stuff of every description.
6 month final prep.
money must be made.
beach mission work (of sorts).
DUDE i am FEELIN THE BURN!
faith in God faith in God faith in God.....
but then, i am no. 4 in Becca's quiz!
so it's all ok.

go me on the GUITAR!. i so kick **** btw.
lol, no-one knows what i actually meant there
SECRETS WITHIN SECRETS.
ok, copious capitals means i should leave.
bye my lil chickadees (and respected associates)
p.s. GO LESS THAN JAKE! LOVE IT! (except when on scratched cd's thomas!)

hey howdy hey

hey y'all
yay. go blackadder. go reel big fish. go everybody!
i have started learning guitar - CHORDS, if you're interested...it's so much fun ppl! 'sides, if i were to ever be a singer in a band, i'd have more cred if i could play guitar. and i can, a little now. how cool.
ummmmmmmmm.....
live life people. i can drive good now.
xox

Tee hee...duh

You are in a relationship that is filled with love
and happiness!


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so...I haven't been on-I HAVE A LIFE PEOPLE!

Go people at my party. If you weren't there, you rejected me and I shall have to hunt you in the cyber-realm. Oh yes, it shall be done.
Assignments at uni etcetc, HOLIDAYS SOON!kimberley is cool coz she was at my party so comment on her blog. And kathy too, for same reason.
Now that i'm older....I'm exactly the same....just older...
ok, this post was mainly to say i havent forgotten you all. how could i, tom keeps telling me to post.
COMMENT ON MY BLOG OR SUFFER MY CYBER SQUIRRELLY WRATH!!
~love, me

oh the desolation of my...oh wait, no, i'm just ill

hey all (all 3 of you that is, unless someone else would just comment, darnit!)
actually, i am slightly desolated! my boyfriend is away, and IF he gets all his assignments finished PRONTO, then and only then i can see him-but only in 3 or 4 days! whatever shall i do???
i wrote a song for him actually...yes another one.....
but i would simply like to record my missingfulness of him. which is in abundance. and it's not even so much for his tight hugs or loverly kisses(which-i would like to make it clear- i am not discounting the value of) it's for HIM. and being held by him.
oh why not, im gonna go on for a bit, if you dont like it, you dont have to read it.
i miss talking to him and listening to him and walking along and playing silly games and stopping him being silly very quickly and happily and looking in his eyes and....oh, everything.
~night.

ah, the art of underestimation...

it's odd.
I know it's apparently the tall poppy syndrome or something, but no-one wants to say they're any good at anything...or that they are special in any way...
i mean, saying, i am good at ... is not to say im better than everyone else in the whole world at...
but maybe we interpret it that way?
are we threatened by people claiming abilities? is pretending everyone is the same more reassuring for people who don't feel special?
is it possible that the people who don't feel special actually are special, but have forgotten they were, or suppressed it, so that someone else could be reassured??
well...maybe not. i personally don't understand myself when my boyfriend says im pretty...because i think deep down i think i look good, but when he says it i feel like he's just saying it, that it couldn't be true.
how does a person accept a compliment these days?

night

getting a passport is hard

there have been several stuffups on the part of the establishment in general which have retarded my efforts to get a passport.
i have been very accomodating of these people, very polite on the phone when they WAKE ME UP IN THE MORNING to tell me something else is wrong,
BUT I WOULD LIKE IT REGISTERED THAT I AM IMPRESSED BY NO-ONE HERE.
OH, and they all want too much money. it's hard to tell if i'm actually applying legitimately, or if i'm just bribing the post office.
annnnnnnnd
GO HAPPY TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY!
tho i try to shun the cornish strange accented one, i kinda go for a weird yorkshire/jack sparrow mix
then tha' shalt see that i truly rule the waves like the bonny lass i am!
lol
~night

LAN tribute

i believe i mean a LAN and not a WAN, ask anyone from yr 10 computing and they'll tell you i'm not exactly in with the lingo and the deeper understanding of computers that its use entails.
-sorry, it's been a while since i posted...i'm a little full of words.
Tom and i went to Stephen's 19th last night/this morning....
was in fact my first time with a LAN, and was slightly apprehensive going in on my own eventually with Age of empires II, but i enjoyed myself immensely (yes, im a nerd, but it's tom's fault...)
what with my continuing wars with my neighbor over whether or not i had the right to burn down his lumber camp and whether or not he had a right to march a....large amount of catapults into my city centre and threaten to decimate it unless i became his ally, and of course my trade complications and dead sexy seige onagers etc....
if that meant nothing to you....
i'm sorry...i used to be there...but computers suck you in. just like tv. except this was worse...COMPETITION ;D
believe me, if you knew what i was talking about it'd be cool.
if you know what i'm talking about...you can tell i'm completely disorganised and probably(not definitely) survived due to tom's gifts of wood, stone and gold.

ALSO, have upped my record of staying awake...was on a yr 12 camp and made it to 4am, thanks libby...got about 3 hours sleep..was unfun.
last night easily made it to about 5, woke at 7:40...was great. managed to feel sane enough to do kids church...then walk home and fall into bed.
i think i did well though. i felt as though i had slept ages.

oh, and just for social commentary....what is with people getting drunk whenever social decorum permits it?
people stumbling about, spilling beer..screaming with joy at everything...then just screaming...
drunk people allow standards of entertainment to be lowered coz they don't care...and the sober of us left have to deal with 3rd-rate entertainment...
IT COULD BE SO MUCH BETTER IF PEOPLE CARED MORE.
i mean...i've seen some of my friends drink...and i'm not blind, i can see that some are craving any kind of release from things they've known...ironically the very things that resurface when they do get drunk...
but some people get drunk be cause they can't be bothered being more inventive, and don't understand that control over themselves and their actions is more valuable than they give it credit for being.
if alcohol is the only thing standing between you and boredom, and a possible crisis of identity and being....
then there is nothing standing between you and boredom, and a possible crisis of identity and being.

~night

soooooo...i'm addicted...to the point that i'll overlook shocking spelling

You're first kiss will be beautiful. You're very
intune to the things around you and are a
slight perfectionist. Your love is pure, and
whoever you choose to share it with is lucky.
You're very romantic and know how to treat
people. Your kiss is a very strong part of your
love.


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